It always seems the last to be healed is the healer, or the intuitive. It often takes a health crisis or significant event to shock the healer awake to the realization that they too can benefit from the work they do for others. I was recently reminded of the importance to use my gifts for myself.
I often encounter messages from spirit delivered by Goddesses that I apply to my practice with clients. One of my favorite Goddesses is Kuan-Yin, the Chinese Goddess of Compassion and Mercy. She often contributes to my Akashic Record readings by assisting me in clearing through the human detail of my client’s past life experience to see the source event relating to present life blocks. This time she was there to inquire why I am not applying the tools I use every day for others to my own blocks and restrictions. She reminded me that I needed to show compassion and mercy to myself.
After this interaction I realized that I do in fact hold myself to a more stringent standard and I always expect a stronger work ethic than is often healthy. This characteristic has been pervasive in my world and worked when I was young and my goals were less consequential – I mean did it really matter if I scored 25 points in a basketball game? I worked harder, longer, more enthusiastically – until I was burnt out!
This message from Kuan-Yin came at just the right time as I was reinventing myself on a professional level and wanted everything to be perfectly in line which of course isn’t realistic. I immediately made time to access my own records to address any blocks and restrictions that were impacting my ability to be gentle with myself.
I read ALL the time so when I enter the Records, I like things presented to me in a visual method with audible information. As soon as I settled into my record, I was entranced by the melody of a voice I did not know. The Lords of Records generally present in a male monotone type voice – the exact opposite of what I heard.
The voice spoke of “Motherly Love” and invited me to crawl into her lap and feel her unconditional love, accepting the burden of any fear and blocks that I was ready to release to her. As I encountered her energy, I knew instinctively that she was the Blessed Mother, and was accompanied by the Archangel Gabriel, further confirming my inclination. This was a new energy for me, having grown up protestant, I knew very little of her Biblical tradition, except the scant, superficial information I learned in my high school World Religions class. But her truth far surpasses the stories that have flowed from man’s religion.
I did not need to speak to her. Her affirmation of my thoughts came clearly to me. She assured me that anytime I seek the warmth and comfort of her company, all I need to do is to return to my Records and she would meet me there. Somethings intuitively feel comfortable, like you have known them forever. This experience was one of those times. I knew that I had been in her energy many times before and as I meditated on the feeling of her energy, I discovered that I have cultivated a relationship with the Blessed Mother across many lifetimes.
This healing at the hands of the Blessed Mother merely peeled off the layers that I was ready to release. The blocks and restrictions that were nearest the surface were those that are slough off first. These usually appear in our everyday life as challenges with self-love, relationship issues and general lack. Once we heal the first layer, the blocks and restrictions in the next layer present themselves.
Healing is an ever evolving experience that continues to bring us closer to our divine vibration. I am happy to hold the lantern for those seeking healing, especially healers.
