I began to meditate with my husband. We would wake up, set a timer, and mindfully meditate. We knew that it had to be immediately, or we would make excuses and not do it.
Over the years I have consistently meditated, exploring a variety of techniques. Out of all techniques available, I return again and again to Mindfulness Meditation.
Return to Mindfulness
Sitting in mindfulness, we focus on the feeling of the air moving in and out of our nostrils, as if the moving air is a moving wave, in and out, in and out. As we focus on our breath, our unconscious thoughts and feelings rise to the surface. We remember when something happened. We think about what we are going to do next. Instead of following the thought or feeling down the rabbit hole, we gently return to the breath. Returning to the breath time after time allows us to develop a life skill of not reacting to every thought we think or feeling we feel. We learn to have space, have choice in whether to, for example, get angry. And we can decide not to.
Where Do These Thoughts and Feeling Come From?
Thoughts and feelings are energy held as particles within bodies and minds. They are like a computer program that runs automatically. That’s helpful when all goes well, but it also blocks our ability to grow and change. True growth and change, true transformation occurs when we go beyond our habitual thinking into the Quantum Wave Field (physics) or the Void (metaphysics). The constant letting go in mindfulness results in deeply healing experiences of no-thing found beyond our small selves. We meet who we truly are as wave forms of energy. And we find limitless peace.
On the surface, mindfulness meditation appears easy. All I have to do is sit down and observe. I set the timer for 30 minutes or so, sit down, close my eyes, and focus on the breath going in and out of my nose to help me relax into the present moment. I need the present moment to carry my brainwaves down into theta and delta frequencies which are my rides into the Quantum Field, the waves that create particles, the Void of infinite possibilities.
Here is a typical dialogue between my patterned Thought-Feeling and my Consciousness during a sitting time out mindfulness meditation. I will call them TF –self running thought-feeling programs from the past, and CS, creative Self, Higher Consciousness who in wave form can change the programs embedded as particles.
Talk between my patterned Thought-Feeling and my Conscious Self.
TF – ‘Whatcha doing? Why are we sitting here? Aren’t you afraid that you will be late opening the store today? Do you even know what time it is?”
CS – “Hush little one, I’m meditating”
TF – “What’s meditating? I like it better when we lie down and listen to imagery or music, and I can wonder all over the place. I don’t like this sitting and being ignored!”
CS – I say nothing, just observe and focus on my breath.
TF – “Hey!! I’m here! I thought I heard a noise in the kitchen. Do you think the refrigerator is running correctly? Maybe you ought to get up and check!”
CS – I take a deep breath and continue to feel the breath coming in and out of my nose.
TF – “Oh my goodness, my left foot has fallen asleep. You’d better do something about that! What if it stays asleep forever and you can’t wake it up? What will happen then?”
CS – OK that one got to me – I stretch my left leg out and go back to following my breath. In and out, in and out.
TF – “I have an idea. Let’s stop and write this up now, that would be fun! Let’s just get to the computer and write this all down!”
CS – I stop following my breath to think about that.
TF – GOTCHA!
CS – “GRR” – back to my breath. And for an instant all is quiet. I go deeper, I begin to relax.
TF – “What are you doing?”
CS – “I am attempting to enter the Quantum Field, the Void.”
TF – “OK, I’ll come with you. It’s better than being bored sitting here!”
CS – “Thank you dear one, but you can’t come with me. To enter I must be pure
consciousness and not my body or my name or even you. I’m sorry, but that’s how it is. I want to experience the perfect flow of the wave. You can only exist in the separation of the particle.”
TF – “Turns on the tears. But I am me and I’m important to you and I tell you what to feel and what to do based on all these beliefs I’ve stored as programs. I make life easy and predictable.”
CS – “Yes, I know you are important and I’m grateful. However, I need to make some adjustments in your programming, and I can only do it when my consciousness is in a higher energy field.”
TF – “I can make changes, just let me try. Keep paying attention to me.”
CS – Oops – here I am again in dialogue with the self I created in the past. I remember that I am sitting here to let go of the past and create a new future. I return to my breath.
TF – “We must be finished by now. You need to look at the timer. I bet it is broken. We have been here for hours and hours.
CS – I buy into that thought, look down and glance at the timer. I have been sitting for 10 minutes and have 20 minutes to go! I go back to feeling my breath and begin to settle into the present moment.
TF – “What are you doing?”
And so goes a typical time out mindfulness meditation.
I know from experience that the more consistent I am with this type of meditation, the more I can observe my thoughts and go back to the breath, the more my brain can calm down and reach theta and delta frequencies of freedom and change. Sitting meditation sounds easy. All we have to do is let go of everything we are thinking to enter the present moment of no-thought, no-thing, to experience our True Self. And that is a wonderous moment that is worth the sitting.
Happy Time Out!
